membaca ombak ombak,
ombak berdebur memukul hatiku
membaca permukaan tenang air kolam,
tak ada bayangan terpantul, pun wajahmu

mungkin salahku
karena ombak tak dapat teraba;
mungkin lupaku
karena air di sana takkan bisa terbaca;

hanya ragu dan putus asa
dan akhirnya kecewa yang ditinggalkannya,
menyesali diri yang begitu naif, juga
karena cinta ternyata tak bisa dipaksa...

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duduk memaknai cinta
duduk dimaknai cinta?
semalam kau dan aku, kita bercerita
tentang keraguan, kekhawatiran, dan keindahan romansa..

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duduk menanti cinta
duduk dinanti cinta?
padahal bulan belum pernah purnama
dan barisan katamu belum terangkai sempurna...

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bersedia berbagi kehidupan
bersedia dibagi kehidupan?
tiga purnama mungkin akan terasa cepat terlewatkan
bersama debaran rasa dan harapan
: saat saat menanti keputusan

It was early in December, but late in the afternoon…
It lasted forever, but ended so soon…

Toastmaster of the Evening, Club President, fellow toastmasters and guests..

Last semester I was not around at school since I was doing my industrial attachment. It was from 11th July and finished just last Friday.

How many of you who are here today have been on IA?

How did you feel when you realized today is your last day of IA?? Relieved, excited, happy, or...sad??
Believe it or not, I’ve felt really sad the moment I stepped out of my IA company. Not only because I wouldn’t be able to see my cute and adorable manager anymore, but also because completing my IA means losing something important in my life. It was the bonding among the staffs and me that I was afraid to lose. It was the memorable times that I treasured the most.

I still clearly remembered… for the first few days, it was such a boring and demoralizing period. I barely had the idea of what my project was about. Everything seemed out of handle. Until a point of time, a staff, a lady who sat in front of my desk, came over. And to my surprise, she smiled and began to ask me, “Intan, how is your project? Do you need any help?”. I was stunned, never expected the staffs would ever offer help to an IA student. But from then on, my relationships with the staffs have been developed.

Starting from just exchanging morning greetings, we often went for lunch together. That was how I got to know each and everyone of them, and realized how colorful their characters are. There is one lady named HoonHoon who is very good at handicrafting and she didn’t hesitate to impart her skills to me. Another wonderful staff is a gentleman who liked to “bully and tease” me. But I know for sure, he did that because he felt close to me and regarded me as a friend. My supervisor is a nice and cheerful lady. How understanding she was, to let me go back earlier to attend Toastmasters meetings. And not to forget my cute and adorable manager who has a very encouraging smile. I was so delighted to be around and interact with them.

Time flies so fast, like a summer-bird swiftly flown away. And finally, the long-awaited day for most of IA students has come. The last day of IA period. The day before, my supervisor told me that we would have lunch together with the manager and staffs. So that last day, I really enjoyed my time. Since morning, I did no work and just had a nice chitchat with HoonHoon most of the time. Until around 12 in the afternoon, 8 people included me went to Swensens. And there, we had great lunchtime. Having chitchat about funny things, laughing here and there, and taking pictures together. My cute and adorable manager even gave me an adorable balloon sculpture! What a wonderful time! If only the moment could last forever…

I could hardly go to sleep that night. Pondering what I’ve gotten from my IA period, and more importantly what I’ve contributed to my IA company. The many little kindnesses and acts of friendship, the occasions of understanding given and received… Hey! I’ve learned something about relationship! That’s the most meaningful experience! But then, the grief of parting attacked me once again…

The next morning I woke up from my bed, I’ve finally decided there was no need of feeling sad. I just need to live my life for the days ahead. And do my best so there won’t be any regret…

Toastmaster of the Evening!

Project #1 : Rhyme of My Life

Toastmaster of the day, club president, fellow toastmasters…

Poetry, is what I love, both reading and writing.
And for the next 4 mins, I would like to share with you how poetry has gone through the bittersweet of life with me.

As a child, I was a cute and chubby little girl, so far as I remembered. Pampered by my parents’ love, I never experienced any big problems in my childhood life. That’s why I grew up as a happy and easy-going child.

In my primary school, all the students had to take Indonesian Language subject, in which we were required to write simple short stories and poems. But most of the time, I couldn’t manage to finish any of my short stories. They were all halfway-written. In the other hand, I was more successful in writing poems. But that time, the theme was more about nature and nationality.

Entering secondary school, my personality changed to be more introvert, even to my mum. I had no particular best friend whom I could share my stories with, so I loved to write my feelings and thoughts in my diary, in the form of poems.

At some stage in my life, I did feel I need a friend to share with. And luckily, I found one during my high school period. A friend whom I could hang out with, a friend who shared the same interest with me… Yes, she loved poetry as well. And with plenty of poetry books that she had, that was how we spent our time together. For a friend in need, she is a friend indeed…and I have one poem that I’ve not given to her:

On a silent night when friends are few
i close my eyes and think of you;
a silent night,a silent tear;
a silent wish,that you were here..

on a perfect morning where skies are blue;
i fall asleep and dream about you;
a perfect morning with bunches of morning dew;
a perfect friend just as cute as you..

for a sky which was so blue;
that was were the birds flew;
for a friend who help me through;
i've nothing to say but thank you...

“love can make someone romantic”…
You may think it was a bit late, but my love life began since I studied in NTU. It is not the first time I like someone, but is the first time I really like someone seriously. Yet, I am a woman of the last century who cannot go after a man she loves aggressively. So I keep my feelings inside and remain his secret admirer.

Until one day, I couldn’t hold my feelings any longer. I wrote a poem and sent it to him. One part of the poem represented my feelings for him, it went like this:
…
I love my stormy rain,
For you can see your blue sky, again
…
Soon after, I regretted sending it. Blushing with embarrassment, I had no idea how to react if I were to meet him. For few days, I tried avoiding him, and kept hoping that he didn’t take my poem seriously. And fortunately, until now, I suppose he doesn’t know that I adore him.

Fellow toatmasters..

Those are some of experiences with poetry since my childhood world. And up till now, my passion for poems is as high as before, even more.

To summarize stages of my life, I have one poem for us to be shared:

To remember me
U don’t need to go to the sea,
For the secret is always above the tree to see…

Just keep a memory about a child
Who always cheerful and never fail to smile

And once grew up as a little girl
With friends she treasured like a pearl

If u asked me, “do u think u are special?”
I can only say, I am a daughter of my parents, quite filial
And my friends will say I am jovial

Toastmaster of the day!

~The Pious Wife~

by Abu Jameelah

Marriage to her is one half of the deen,

The benefit Allah has put in her is yet to be seen.

She wears her hijab for her Lord, to please and obey,

She turns to Allah for salaah at least five times each day.

She prays in the night and makes sure to awake you,

And sprinkles you with water if sleep should overtake you.

She protects her chastity with firmness because she does not desire,

To displease Allah and end up in the tormenting fire.

She asks the people who know when matters need to be rectified,

She is not blinded by self righteousness and foolish pride.

She is humble and kind to her husband as Allah has commanded,

Never leaving him alone, isolated, nor stranded.

She only responds, for Allah's Sake in the manner which is best,

Not resisting her husband when he makes a reciprocal request.

She takes care of herself and never ceases to try,

To beautify herself and her character so to please his eye.

She is a pleasure Allah has given to us in this life,

Be thankful to Allaah alone for His blessing,The Pious Wife.

~The Righteous Husband~
by Abu Jameelah

He is a protector and like a lion when the need should arise,

Abusiveness and oppresion is not that upon which his manhood relies.

His words are kind, gentle, and soft upon her ear,

Yet clearly spoken and loud enough for her heart to hear.

He comes home to his wife with contentment and anticipation,

Being very attentive to her needs, endowing upon her total elation.

He fears his Lord, The Most Merciful and Sublime,

By being mindful and aware of how he provides her the time,

To have peace and relaxation of her soul, her body, and her mind.

He is the friend and companion the one whom she will always admire,

Protecting not only himself but also her from the fire.

He is the one who's hard to find all throughout the land,

The favor and blessing from her Lord,The Righteous Husband.

It was late in December.. it was late afternoon...
It lasted forever... but ended so soon...

I feel like a fool..
who cannot understand any of the rules..

Catatan Menyentuh Selembar Daun
sumber: http://www.lallement.com/erwin/daun02.htm

Angin merah delima.
Langit di luar kata.

Aku makin takut memasuki kehidupan.
Seekor kupu-kupu terbang di halaman.

Apakah hakekat terdalam dari kepedihan?
Capung-capung terbang menjelang hujan.

Ketika hujan: air mengalir membasahi tanah.
Sehabis hujan: langit bersih, hati pun cerah.

Kusaksikan: awan-awan putih bergerak perlahan.
Kusaksikan: suka dan duka bergerak bergantian.

Tak ada lagi yang kuingin: itulah keinginan.
Langit biru makin membiru: inilah kepedihan.

Waktu terus mengalir, di luar kehendakku.
Angin berhembus semilir, membelai keningku.

Kini kusadari, aku bukanlah kata.
Mawar-mawar pun mekar tanpa suara.

Sayup kudengar suara angin.
Sayup kulihat: suara angin!

Aneh, masih juga ada duka menekan dadaku.
Sayup, kudengar isak selembar daun jambu.

Aku tersenyum: aku makin sakit dalam tersenyum.
Alangkah ranum buah mangga itu: alangkah ranum.

Makin lama pikiranku makin terasa sesak.
Seekor ular hitam melintasi semak-semak.

Betapa rumit melepas pikiran menjadi jernih.
Aku tertegun menatap setangkai anggrek putih.

Malam ini: kubayangkan bulan bersinar ungu.
Malam ini: aku makin ingin melupakan diriku.

Duduk memandang bulan: duduk dipandang bulan.
Duduk dipandang bulan: duduk memandang bulan.

Tunjukkan padaku duka paling nyeri?
Bulan, bulan, bulan: bersinar pagi!

Setetes embun menatap mata!
Yang terlihat hanya cahaya.

Kupejam mataku: pikiran terbuka.
Kubuka mataku: semesta terbuka.

Pergi, pergi, pergi sejauh-jauhnya.
Yang kutemui: tetap pintu yang sama.

Lebih dalam lagi dari cinta: tanpa kata.
Lebih perih lagi dari luka: hanya bahagia.

Siang itu, aku makin tak paham makna cinta.
Sepasang kupu-kupu berkejaran di sela bunga.

Di mana akan kutemui makna rindu tanpa ilusi?
Lihat, ada berjuta senyum pada kelopak bunga seruni!

Setangkai anggrek ungu: mekar di depan mataku.
Setangkai anggrek ungu: mekar di dalam hatiku.

Batang-batang padi bergoyang seperti menari.
Hatiku riang menapaki awan di langit tinggi.

Pernahkah kaulihat langit tanpa warna?
Pernahkah kaulihat langit dalam cinta?

Di langit biru, awan bergerak perlahan.
Di langit biru, mataku bergerak perlahan.

Biarkan kini keningku dibakar matahari.
Biarkan rasaku meresapi embun pagi.

Aku memandang: setetes embun di atas daun.
Aku dipandang: setetes embun di atas daun.

Jalan setapak berumput, di sini:
kutemukan maut, hidup, dan sunyi.

Kutulis puisi: kutulis pedih dan kedamaian.
Daun-daun sunyi terus tumbuh dan berguguran.

Bandar Lampung, 1989 - 2000

Dimanakah Allah ?
(Koreksi atas perkataan 'Allah dimana-mana')

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Ini adalah perkara besar, karena yang menjadi objek pertanyaan adalah Allah 'Azza wa Jalla. Maka jawabannya harus dikembalikan kepada naql(wahyu) bukan kepada ra'yu(akal). Rasulullah SAW penutup para nabi, manusia yang paling bertaqwa, paling ma'rifat(mengenal) Allah SWT, Beliaupun tidak berbicara berdasarkan hawa nafsu, tetapi semata-mata berdasarkan wahyu yang diwahyukan (lihat QS.An Najm:3-4) juga telah menjelaskan masalah ini.

Dalil-Dalil Naqli(Al Qur'an dan As Sunnah)
a. Dalil dari Al Qur'an
Terdapat banyak dalil dalam masalah ini, diantaranya firman Allah Ta'ala :"A amintum man fiis samaaa" "artinya : Apakah kalian merasa aman dari Allah yang ada diatas diatas langit ?" (QS.Al Mulk:16)
Ibnu Abbas radhiyallahu 'anhu menjelaskan yang dimaksud diatas langit yaitu diatas 'arsy. karena 'arsy ada diatas seluruh langit.[Zaadul Maasir li Ibnul Jauzi (8/332)], dan juga dari Mujahid rahimahullahu (muridnya Ibnu Abbas).[Ad Durul Mantsur li Jalaluddin as Suyuthi (8/248)].
Ayat diatas tidak bertentangan dengan firman Allah SWT :
"Ar rahmanu 'alaa al'arsy istiwa" "artinya : Ar rahman bersemayam bersemayam diatas 'arsy". (QS.At Thaha:5)

Didalam Al Qur'an ayat-ayat yang menjelaskan Allah Tabaraka wa Ta'ala berada diatas 'arsy ada di tujuh tempat yaitu : QS.Thaha:5, QS.As Sajdah:4, QS.Al Hadid:4, QS.Al A'raf:54, QS.Yunus:3, QS.Ar Ra'du:2, QS.Al Furqan:59. [lihat Mukhtashor Ma'arijil Qobul, Syaikh Ibnu Ahmad Ali al Hakami (hal.40)].

b. Dalil As Sunnah dan Perkataan para Salaful Ummah
Dari Mu'awiyah bin al Hakam as Sulami r.a menuturkan : "Aku mempunyai sekawanan kambing yang digembalakan oleh seorang jaryah(budak wanita). Suatu gari saat aku memeriksa kambing-kambing tersebut, ternyata salah satu dari kambing-kambing tersebut telah dimangsa oleh serigala, sementara aku seorang manusia biasa, aku menyesalkannya lalu aku menampar wanita itu. Kemudian kudatangi Rasulullah SAW dan kuceritakan kejadian tersebut, Beliaupun membesarkan peristiwa itu(menyesalkan) atasku, maka kukatakan kepadanya : "Wahai Rasulullah SAW, tidakkah(lebuh baik) aku memerdekakannya ? Beliaupun bersabda : "Panggilah ia, lalu akupun memanggilnya, maka Beliau SAW bertanya kepadanya : "Dimanakah Allah ? wanita itu menjawab : "Diatas langit", Beliau SAW bertanya lagi : "Siapakah aku ?" ia menjawab : "Engkau Rasulullah", lalu Rasulullah SAW bebersabda : "Merdekakanlah, karena dia itu wanita beriman". [Shahih. HR.Muslim no.537, HR.Ahmad (5/477), HR.Malik (2/77), HR.Syafi'i (242)].

Al Muhaddist adz Dzahabi berkata : "Didalam hadist ini ada dua masalah penting".
Pertama : "[/I]Di-syariatkan seorang muslim bertanya dengan pertanyaan ini : "Dimanakah Allah ?", karena Rasulullah SAW mencontohkanya[/I]".
Kedua : "Jawaban yang benar atas pertanyaan ini adalah : "Diatas langit", karena Rasulullah menyetujui jawaban wanita tersebut, bahkan memberi kesaksian bahwasanya wanita jariyah tersebut adalah wanita beriman" [lihat Tashfiyah wat Tarbiyah hal.38]

Seseorang bertanya kepada Imam Malik bin Anas(Maliki), bagaimana Allah bersemayam(istiwa') ?, beliaupun menjawab : "Bagaimananya tidak diketahui, dan istiwa'-Nya diketahui, meng-imaninya wajib, mempertanyakannya bid'ah, dan aku takut kamu menjadi orang sesat, lalu beliau menyuruhnya supaya keluar dari majlisnya" [Mukhtshor al 'Uluww(hal.141)]
Imam Malik juga berkata : "Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala diatas langit dan ilmu-Nya meliputi setiap tempat, tidak ada sesuatu yang tersembunyi dari-Nya". [Mukhtashor al 'Uluww lil hafidz adz Dzahabi (hal.140)]

Abu Muthi al Balakhi bertanya kepada Imam Abu Hanifah tentang orang yang berkata : "Aku tidak mengetahui Allah SWT baik diatas langit ataupun di bumi". Beliaupun menjawab : "Apabila orang itu mengingkari Allah SWT diatas langit, maka sungguh ia telah kufur, karena Allah SWT berfirman yang artinya : "Ar Rahman bersemayam diatas 'arsy"(QS.Thaha:5) dan 'arsy-Nya diatas langit-langit-Nya" [Mukhtashor al 'Uluww (hal.136)].

Imam asy Syafi'i berkata : "Penjelasan didalam sunnah yang aku ada diatasnya begitu juga aku melihat orang seperti Sufyan, Malik dan orang yang lainnya meng-ikrarkan persaksian bahwa tidak ada sesembahan selain Allah SWT dan Muhammad SAW adalah utusan Allah SWT dan bahwasanya Allah SWT itu ada diatas 'arsy-Nya diatas langit-Nya, mengawasi setiap makhluk-Nya sesuai yang Dia kehendaki" [Mukhtashor al 'Uluww (hal.176)]

Imam Ahmad ditanya apakah Allah SWT diatas langit yang ketujuh diatas 'arsy-Nya, terpisah dari makhluk-Nya, dan Qudrot(kuasa), dan 'ilmu (pengetahuan-Nya) meliputi segala tempat ?". Beliaupun menjawab : "Ya, Dia diatas 'arsy tiada sesuatupun yang tersembunyi dari 'ilmu-Nya".[Mukhtashor al 'Uluww (hal.189-190)]

Syubhat dan Bantahannya

Keyakinan Allah SWT ada dimana-mana, termasuk pengertian (mana) adalah tempat najis, kotor dan menjijikan, karena dimana-mana menunjukan makna semua tempat tanpa kecuali. Dan pendapat ini adalah pendapat baru(bid'ah) yang tidak dikenal oleh para shahabat, tabi'in, tabi'it tabi'in dan juga imam madzhab yang empat(4). Pendapat ini dipopulerkan oleh seorang tokoh SUFI terkemuka, yaitu Ibnu Arabi al Andalusi (hidup abad 6 H). Yang terkenal dengan paham Wihdatul Wujud atau Pantheisme yang ia adopsi dari Filsafat neo Platonisme yang berkeyakinan bahwa Allah SWT ada dimana-mana, bahkan wujud alam semesta ini manifestasi dari wujud Allah melalui tahapan emanasi/pencahayaan [lihat Ensiklopedia Filsafat].

Dari wihdatul wujud ini orang juga berpendapat Wihdatul Adyaan (kesatuan agama-agama/sinkretisme). Ia (Ibnu Arabi,-red) mengatakan bahwa iblis itu ahli tauhid, fir'aun ber-iman, Yahudi, Nasrani dan penyembahan ber-hala hakekatnya (substansinya) menyembah Allah SWT juga (lihat kitab karangannya, Fusuhul Hikam dan Futuhatul Makkiyah). Allahu Musta'an. Semua paham sesat nan menyesatkan ini adalah buah dari keyakinan pantheisme yaitu Allah Ta'ala ada dimana-mana.

Adapun firman Allah SWT : "Wahuwa ma'akum ainamaa kuntum wallahu bimaa ta'maluuna bashir" "artinya : Dan Dia Allah bersama kamu di mana saja kamu berada dan Allah Maha Melihat apa yang kamu perbuat" (QS.Al Hadid:4), ayat ini sama sekali tidak bisa dijadikan hujjah/dalil bahwa Allah SWT dimana-mana, yang benar ayat ini menjelaskan sifat ma'iyyah(kebersamaan) Allah secara umum('ammah) atas seluruh makhluk-Nya dimana saja berada, apa saja dan siapa saja, dengan ilmu, bashir(penglihatan) serta sama'-Nya (pendengaran-Nya) yang meliputi segala sesuatu. Sedangkan kebersamaan Allah SWT secara khusus(khoosh) hanya atas orang-orang mu'min saja dengan perlindungan dan pertolongan-Nya, seperti dalam firman-Nya : "Innallaha ma'ash-shoobiriin" "artinya : Sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang-orang yang benar" (QS.Al Baqarah:153). [lihat tafsir Ibnu Katsir (3/592-593)]. Karena itu, kata ma'a(bersama) tidak berarti Allah SWT ada dimana-mana, di berbagai tempat, disetiap sudut, seperti keberadaan makhluk-Nya atau bersatu/menempel dengan makhluk-Nya yang ada dimana-mana.

Perkataan Allah SWT dimana-mana hanya keluar dari orang-orang yang terkontaminasi pemikiran filsafat dan teori theologi asing yang bukan dari Islam. Adapun orang-orang yang masih bersih fitrahnya(hati dan pikirannya) seperti budak wanita penggembala yang ditanya Nabi SAW, dengan spontanitas ia mengatakan "Allah diatas langit". Karena itu, wajib setiap muslim meng-imani masalah ini, yaitu menetapkan Allah Ta'ala diatas langit, bersemayam diatas 'Arsy, sebagaimana Allah SWT sendiri yang telah men-sifati diri-Nya di dalam Al Qur'an dan As Sunnah melalui lisan Rasul-Nya, sesuai dengan kesempurnaan dan keagungan-Nya.
Dan tidak boleh di pertanyakan dan di ta'wil(dipalingkan dari makna semestinya) bagaimana ber-semayamnya(istiwa') ?, karena Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala tidak sama dengan makhluk-Nya. [lihat Manaqib Imam asy Syafi'i, Imam al Baihaqi (I/398)].

Allah Ta'ala berfirman : "Laisa kamitslihi syai ... wahuwas-samii'ulbashir" "artinya : Tidak ada sesuatu yang serupa dengan-Nya dan Dia Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Melihat" (QS.Asy Syuraa:11). Ini adalah i'tiqad(aqidah, keyakinan) Ahlus Sunnah Wal Jama'ah yaitu keyakinan para shahabat, tabi'in, tabiit tabi'in (para Salafus Shalih,-red-), ahlul hadist juga imam madzhab yang empat yang menjadi panutan kaum muslimin.


Maraji':
Tafsir Al Qur'an Al Azhim karya Ibnu Katsir, Mukhtashor Ma'arijul Qobul li Syaikh Ibnu Ahmad Ali al Hakami, Tashfiyah wa Tarbiyah karya Syaikh Ali Hasan bin Abdul Hamid al Halaby al Atsari. dll

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Risalah Dakwah(Buletin Islam) Al Hujjah No.132/Thn.III/1426H: Upaya Menapak Jejak Salafus Shalih